Vision


Tonight, I spent the evening putting up some Christmas decorations, and imagining the possibility for many more. For some reason Christmas is under my skin this year and I am SOOO excited. I want to make it a magical year. So with that sort of enthusiasm I energetically approached the decorating process- only to feel a bit of chagrin at the current state of my house. It lacks so much of the sophistication and character of our finished Shaker home. I miss our grand fireplace, rod iron railing, and all the beautiful millwork. I miss the wood windows and arched entries. My vision for this house is extensive. Usually I don’t let my mind go there, preferring instead to remain in the land of contentment and gratitude. But tonight, garland and poinsettia in hand, I imagined a vaulted kitchen ceiling, pendant lights, tall baseboards and trimmed in windows. I saw a beautifully refinished hardwood floor wrapping around into the kitchen creating flow and unity. My mind erased the wall isolating the kitchen from the rest of the house, and instead saw myself baking cookies Scotland at my side, our new little one happily playing in the living room- all of us interacting and smiling.
I know I should just be grateful to live in such a wonderful home. And I am. Trust me, I thank my Father in Heaven every night for this home, that has enough space for Scotland to run, ride his “train” and race cars. But that doesn’t stop me from seeing the potential of this place. A few months ago I got quite down on myself for my lack of vision. It later occurred to me I have great vision in certain areas of my life. I have extensive plans (and multiple sketches) for my yard and home. Because I know so many of these “plans” are unrealistic and somewhat materialistic I tend to be a bit embarrassed about even admitting them, but that’s not fair. Perhaps my vision will never materialize, but I find joy in the process.  I just need to garner the confidence to man a miter saw and nail gun and learn to install baseboard and trim!

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